Time may change me, but I can’t change time…


Geez, before I start, I almost feel like I should change shoes and put on a cardigan (ala Mr. Rogers)…

Perhaps one of the more redeeming things I have gained from this brief weight loss experience along with the desire to become a runner is the fact that I have found so many amazing and supportive people along the way.  I know I’ve said things akin to this before, but it astounds me how I can make personal goals, open up to the world about it, and have a blogger friend or two cheer me on.  I love it. There is much kinship and camaraderie to be shared, and I have been the benefactor of much of it…and to all those who’ve given me ‘virtual’ pats on the back, I sincerely thank you.

Some time ago, John wrote an open letter to his wife in which he revealed his fantastic weight loss blog. It was earnest, honest, and touching. I am a big fan of John’s and try to read his blog every day.  I’ve never met John, but I look forward to reading all that he does. I have high hopes for his goals and am thrilled when he succeeds.  The same goes for numerous others like Andrew, Annette, Matt, Courtney, Will, Elisa, Sharon…basically my entire blogroll. We’re all very different people…some of us have similar motives, while others differ, yet we have one thing in common: GOALS. We all have goals–more or less–to become better people.

I often think, then, why do we have a hard time applying the well-wishes we so freely give through cyberspace to real life, face-to-face interactions?  Maybe I should back up…you all might already do that…you probably do…but I will be honest…sometimes things like envy, jealousy and even depression get in my way. And, unlike John, I haven’t exposed my goals to most of my family or friends.  I haven’t tested the waters to see if I’ll get encouragement that I believe I so desperately need. The family and friends who do know about this blog have been extremely supportive…so why can’t I man up and tell everyone else?

Honestly?  It’s because I love you all too much.  My readers who give me what I need to keep going. The simple compliments, the amens, the mad props…whatever it is…keeps me going. Friendly strangers, blogging friends who have come through in the support area…I’ve tested the waters here, and it feels safe and secure (believe me when I say this isn’t an invitation for current readers to turn on me 😉 ).

It addition to readers here, I’ve joined other online communities that I really love (some of which I’m going to profile in the near future). My online communities have been fantastic…but I need to springboard a little more into reality.  I need to open up the desires of my heart to be a healthier me to my family and friends. The time has come to reveal some big plans to them. I may get doubt from some…but in November or December of 2009, or maybe January of 2010 when I cross the finish line of whatever marathon I run with my friend Aaron and I lose the remaining 5/6 of my weight goal…hopefully I will give the doubters a reason to believe in me again.

At my most recent weigh-in, I discovered that I have now lost just over 22 pounds. I now weigh just over 347 lbs. I will never (and don’t think I’m going to recant or think about slip ups here), never weigh 350 lbs. again. I have spent more time running in the past three months than I probably ever have at any one point in time.

As I watched the Women’s Olympic Marathon with my wife, we learned that one of the Chinese runners favored to medal supposedly ran over 700 miles a month. To me that’s amazing…nothing short of a miracle.

But then again, so is someone who used to weigh 370 lbs. who finally got off his ginormous butt to do something about it.

I might only run 30 miles a month right now, but I can honestly say that for the first time in my life, I have finally impressed…myself.


July stats


So, I was on vacation a large part of July and was scared that my weight loss might be less than stellar. Needless to say, I’m perfectly complacent with the 4.4 lbs. I lost. That’s about a pound a week, and right on par with the least I hoped to achieve. I’m really looking forward to the 349 milestone on the scale though…that will be the lowest I’ve been in a while, and will put my overall weight loss goal at a double-digit…sure, it’ll be 99 lbs., but still…a double-digit. 😉

So, for the month of July…

MILES RUN:                       29.7

TIME SPENT RUNNING:      7:38:02

DAYS I RAN:                      13

SHORTEST DIST.:              1.5mi (2.4k)

LONGEST DIST.:                3.35mi (5.4k)

CALORIES BURNED*:         22,216

WEIGHT LOST:                   4.4lbs.

On to the crazy month of August!

*=includes cross training workouts

Back in Black: another Couch-to-5k update


So, I think I need more AC/DC on my iPod when I run…it just does something for me.

I did it!  I got out there today and it felt great. My pace was 14:47…not my best, but only three seconds from it. I’m a slow runner…I know this, I will be for a while, so I don’t expect this number to be augmented altogether too much in the coming weeks, but it’s a hell of a lot better than that 16:00 from a while back.

I finally moved onto week 3 of the Couch-to-5k program — though for me it is technically week 4. This week called for the usual ‘brisk’ five-minute warm-up walk and then intervals as usual. This week’s intervals are 90s run/90s walk followed by a 3 min. run/3 min. walk. Lather, rinse, repeat. I can’t tell you what euphoria I had when I ran my first 90 seconds without hardly getting winded! It seemed so easy.  I knew I had to enjoy it while it lasted (ahem…all 90 seconds) because the next interval wasn’t going to be as easy.

And it wasn’t.

I got up to about 2:45 of straight running before I puttered out. I can’t tell you how badly I wanted to just do 15 more seconds, but the heart rate was a bit high and my lungs were telling me, “Stop now, before we do it for you, tough guy.” So I did, and I walked (perhaps a bit more than three minutes, but not too much longer) and then decided that I might need an extra day with this interval schedule.  I was, however, able to do 90s intervals all the way home, and it felt pretty good. Ironically enough, this came when The Eagles Take it Easy was playing…wherein I substituted the lyrics, “Don’t let the sound of your on wheels make you crazy,” to “Don’t let the sound of your own heels make you crazy.” I know, I know…I’m weird, and ‘oh-so-creatively-funny.’ But not really. 😉

To top it off, I came home, decided it was time to weigh again and to my amazement, had dropped roughly another 2.5 pounds. Happy day.

Let’s hope this week can continue to be a great one!

Still on track


Happy Monday, all.  Hope everyone had a great weekend. I went for my longest run since April today: 3.1 miles at just over 48 minutes. Not stellar, but not horrible for me either.  I was happy about it, though I wish I could have done just a bit better.  The first mile was great, but my calves felt like bricks for most of the second mile. Then the third mile seemed to be the best.  I was just happy to get out there and do it.

So, regarding my number one goal (see left), I should probably set the record straight a bit. When I started this blog a few weeks ago, my last recorded weight was 365. However, I’ve been keeping track of stats through traineo, and in all actuality, my initial weight was 370. Bummer. Now, I know it might seem trivial, especially in light of the fact that I’ve now lost 13 pounds, but I figured that since I promised myself I wouldn’t cheat, that I would clear the air, update my goal to adequately reflect how much I really needed to lose (120 lbs.) and be at peace.  I decided to install the traineo buttons on the side for just a mit more accountability, and for you all to see my progress.  I was hesitant to do this at first, but what’s more important?  The fact that I need to drop over 100 more, or that by this time sometime next year (or shortly thereafter) I’ll be able to say witout any shame that I lost over 100? I think you all get the drift.

It’s going to be a great week – I can feel it!

You take the good, you take the bad, you take them both…


…and there you have, the facts of life. I’ve realized that there are going to be good days and bad days on this journey.  Today was a bit of both, but I will say that in terms of overall health, it as definitely good.

Today was not the most stellar of runs I’ve had thus far.  It seemed like I had been improving my pace to less than 15:00 a mile, but in all actuality, today ended up over 16:00. Yikes.  Would anyone think it a bad idea to repeat this week of the Couch-to-5k? This week is running intervals of 90 seconds and walking two minutes in between.  It seems as if I have enough energy and stamina to do maybe four intervals with 90 second runs, but by the end, I feel like the most I can do is 60.  Is this relatively normal — kind of a getting worse before I can get better thing?  Regardless, I’m not giving in…I’ll just have to spend an extra week giving it a try before moving on.

ON THE CONVERSE, I weighed in today and am happy to say that I am now legitimately below 360. Since starting the blog and training regimen, my weight actually went up almost to 370.  It was discouraging at first (ok, I wanted to punch a hole in the wall), but then I realized that that is how it’s happened almost every time I’ve started something like this.  I gain first, and then see some results. I feel like my primary goal is now officially under way as I weighed in at 359 – just about 110 more to go!

And just for fun, here’s the theme song that I took this post’s title from…one of my favorite shows growing up:

When to weigh and how often?


Is this not one of many perennial questions on one’s journey through weight loss?  I have had suggestions all through my life that the best time to weight yourself is in the morning…and of course that makes a decent amount of sense to me, though I am curious to know how often people weigh themselves…

Daily? Weekly? Fortnightly?

I had been maintaining a decent exercise regimen from January until April, weighed in weekly and was happy to see that more often than not, the numbers were decreasing. Then we moved across town, and I have been slow to regain my momentum ever since. Right!  Like I could really afford to NOT exercise that long?!  So, now, I’m back at it and after a few days of good exercising and healthy eating, I hop on the scale and see that…I’ve…GAINED FIVE POUNDS?!? Wha..?

Needless to say, I put on a mini-freakshow in the bathroom.

So, I’m somewhat discouraged, yet encouraged at the same time…I guess in a way, it’s motivating me to work harder. Though the goal is now seemingly shifted from losing 115 pounds to 120. Fan-bloody-tastic…what a way to start off one of the biggest transformations in your life.  I just have to beat it and not let it beat me.

Have I acquired any readers yet?  What are your thoughts?